Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Where is my MAN ?

I keep talking to a dozen men everyday . Politics, science, religion, love, sex, philosophy, sports and what not! everything finds a place in my conversation with most of them...and when a few of the the relation ships are poised at a point , where one of us want a bit more extra from it...but a million dollar question is .. why is it that ... Always only one side wants more than the other??....well..I am not getting into the discussion as to why I sometimes refuse to take the relation ship further. Not that I cant answer but just that this stuff was not meant to talk about that. Simple question is ...why is it that you measure up to a level of a friend and nothing more in the other person's thoughts, when you really believe that the relation ship is worth going further.....
First thing that comes to my mind..."am I not that attractive" ??? ...what with all this dusky complexion..with not many "attention seeking " features?
But going by the social standards...I think I am kind of an average candidate... ;) so If that's not it..then what else???

Is it really really hard to find a perfect person ??? ...the word "perfect" has 101 connotations and when I start describing mine...all that I receive is "huh...that's too much of an expectation...that's impossible....learn to compromise on a few" and some more on those lines which I believe are not worth a mention here for obvious reasons. Well...I really beg to differ...Being perfect is just a perception...who might be an awesome hunk charactererized with super good qualities in my eyes might be an useless ,unworthy material in some one else's. As long as he rules in my heart and emotions...I am just too happy,content and satisfied...That being the case..why do people make a big hue and cry?..unfortunately the word "people" includes my parents too...some people just dont get it right... ;(

What I really don't understand is that "Is love such a rare commodity?" or love clubbed with a lot of other commodities(read qualities) is rare?? But I am not eccentric.... because most of which I want/expect is on similar lines with majority of girls/women.....All that I want is selfless love which is passionate and unconditional..... and more importantly sensible(I think this is where the problem lies) ... After all sensibility comes when there is a strong foundation built with mutual respect for each others thoughts..... (Is it a sin to expect one to respect my thoughts?)

If its that hard...and If that requires me to wait for more time..Let me go on..

I am in no hurry to tie the unsatisfied knot at 25 . Rather will wait until 45 to make the knot more meaningful than being materialistic...


At the end of the day...I want to tell myself..."The WAIT WAS WORTH IT"

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Are we really Indepenadent?

When the corporates go "gaga" over this independance day stuff, when schools and colleges gear up for the flag hoisting cermony, when government organisations overdo the happenings with political and commericial flavours..

I keep wondering how real and true is all this....

What are we celebrating...."the independence" or just a day??

If its the former,then loads of things come flooding into my mind...
do we really live in an independant world ?...well..I am defntly not talking about bomb blasts..relgious calamities...government policies..socio-economic values ...etc.., Its just independence at the personal,emotional and spiritual levels.....

How Independently can I decide what I want to do..and how I want to live... .Well again..there is nothing like "going against the tide stuffs"...very simple..what liberty do "I" as an individual have to decide what to do and what not to.....

All of us are so dependant on each other in every other aspect of life....
Things are so interwoven that its too hard or unconventional to untangle them and survive as a single entity...


Would rather appreciate if Independance is seen as a way of life than a commodity....

..All said,

if its the latter...then..what the heck..I dont care.. ;)

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

To "THE SHADOW"

In a life so uncertain, with loads of surprises awaiting you every day, every minute ,every second, you see a streak of light coming from no where to show you the nicest things that life has to offer, to make you feel the value of your presence in the tenure, to let you understand the essence of just living, to shower all happiness on you, to tell you that you will be the best today, tomorrow and forever......what more could you ask for.. if that light comes to you in the form of your sibling....?????

To an extraordinary, intelligent girl who is so selfless, so understanding, so loving and yet so brilliant...
The love of my life

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

KNOTS in tying the knot....

your parents think you are "stupid"
your friends think you are "insane"
your relatives think you are "dumb"

If you say "I want to remain unmarried "

more so if you are girl
...
What possibly could be the problems if a girl remains unmarried...well ..parents with their so called rich experience in life say..."you wont need anyone now..but at one point in time, you might feel lonely..so you need a person"..agreed! and I ask, "then why dont I marry when I actually start feeling lonley...mmm?" (they think of an answer).."right we agree...but you might not get anyone at that point in time coz you ll get old" ..mmmmmmmm(I am thinking now) "oh...nice...do we get good companions only when we are young..?...so you become less saleable in the marriage market..if you lose your so called age" ( I understand what exactly the word "age" means... ;)) and phat comes the answer...."you might not be able to have children"...huh...what the f**k? ..Is it all about getting married , sleeping with a man/woman...(come on..its so important coz u need to have children).....and then become a mother/father...that way your life would be complete(complete ..how and for whom?)
After all this..you start searching for the so called companion ship....(jobless phase in the life cycle of marriage)....so start hunting for life....


So is this what expected out of a typical marriage in our society?.....I am not very sure...but cant think of a worser system.