To that "HE" it goes all the way from my heart!!

"HE" showed his intelligence, without discussing my stupidity
"HE" showed his dominance, without hurting my ego
"HE" showed his selflessness without proving my selfishness
"HE" showed his patience without questioning my anger

"HE" fought with me but did not hurt me
"HE" cared for me but did not pamper me
"HE" questioned me but did not command me

"HE" ..................
made me feel beautiful , made me feel ugly
made me feel stupid, made me feel wise
made me feel simple ,made me feel complicated
made me feel ecstatic ,made me feel dumb
made me feel my feminity, made me forget it :)
made me "love" made me "hate"
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There always existed an "Unspoken Understanding" between us that was as beaufiful as the sunshine after days of rain......

Emotional Immunity...I wish I had it

So..Why is it that people take us for granted jus like that...what makes them do it??? becoz they think they have the skills to do anything and get away with it??.......so...if thats the case..how are we suppose to react to that?? ...1. Use all obscenities on earth...despise them...and leave it at that??? or 2. give it back hardly.....or 3. jus shrug ur shoulders saying " some r not worth my anger or..emotions"...and forget it.......Thing is i feel like doing all of them...but..unfortunately..I only end up crying feeling sorry for my own self.....crib for sometime and forget it...the number of resolutions that comes to my mind at that point in time is countless...But....I am sure..I wont be following any of them..what the heck???.....But..I keep wishing that I remain really really immune to all that...But cant help myself... :) :( .....I am certain that I would definetely come over this crap some day...

chikku ....bukku...Train of thoughts!!!

Sometimes...I keep wondering about the co-incidental yet eccentric beauty of the chain of thoughts and the awesome flow they have...Like..I was sitting in a meeting room which was supposed to be really official...and there my thoughts started drifting..and out of no where, I started thinking about Charminar.....I was like.trying to figure out..as to what is it..that took me all the way to Charminar from the meeting room :)....so..It went on like this...."Boring Meeting..Will meetings be like this everywhere?....shud be the same across all IT companies...Infosys....My frnd works for Infosys posted in Hyderabad......Hyderabad City....Charminar"....there you go!!! :)....This is kind of really really intersting and I have always enjoyed doing this.....and I pat myself If I am able to get to the root thing....If I dont, I keep thinkin about it so much.....and that by itself leads to yet another new chain of thoughts.....As I love spending a lot of time in solitude, this kind of keeps me going most of the times...and the very strange aspect of relating the most unrelated things...is what fascinates me so much... :)...
Wanted to share this whimsical fascination...... :)

What the hell is "It?

Its eccentric to learn, that we go behind things which we are sure is not ours....I most of the times keep thinking/rethinking as to what is it that drives one behind something...with a completely sane understanding that it doesn't belong to us.......but I end up..with no answer most of the times.....what can be It?? is it because of the abundant love you have towards it...or is it because of the tailor made ego that doesn't let you realise your stupidity....or is it due to the momentary pleasure you get thinking/imagining that you own it.....Be it anything...I simply hate it...and I think of ways of not loving it...Well...the intentional feeling makes me..want it more than..avoiding it :).....I wish I could reason out most of my needs..unfortunately..I cant..or I dont...probably..I am scared of self-realisation..after all we are all human beings and we want to believe in things..that we like....and the more we believe we start living with it (Even if its jus the thought).....

Well, at this point, It would make more sense to define, what is it that we actually think when we say..that we want "something" to be ours....(be it materialistic or otherwise)...Is it an obsession that "it" should belong only to "ME"..or is it a feeling that "I would wnat to have more rights over it"....or "I like it , so I want it".....Well, I am unable to come to a sensible rather acceptable conclusion...(I always believe that not all that makes sense is acceptable)...Whatever it is...Hell with "it"...and I dont care as long as I want to be that way...

I realised that I would conclude this way, even before I thought I ll write something today.....so..Its just that!!

Startin Trouble!! ...I would like to call it that way!!

One among a lot of things, that I thought Ill never do in life - blogging, but as usual after giving out this completely insignificant statement(atleast to myself) , here I am,doing that thing... :)

Well, I have no clue as to what I want to write, but its jus out of that instinctive feelin that I started writing, Its like this........anytime I sit to write, I become very contemplative that I end up cribbin about something or the other, I am not sure: If I do that due to my pessimistic attitude(well, why shud I call it that, just becoz everyone says so) or is it because I find solace in doing so..I am seriuosly not sure and would be glad, If I find out the answer someday.

So, I thought here in this place , where a lot of people get to see what one writes(thinks!!), I might end up writing something with induced optimism(Intentionally ofcourse!!), ....which eventually will make me(I believe so) accustomed to writing good stuffs... :)...

thats more of polambifiyin ...for the first one... and will crib more later!!